ii lurrvee euu ._________

Wednesday, March 29

i am feeling veri sad and lonely now , esp at nite...
it seem something are missing from my life...
i cant wait for sch to start...
so i can keep my mind working....
and no time for others thoughts...

ALTHOUGH,

i miss the time we spent on the phone till late midnite...
i miss the goodnite msg u always send me...
i miss the morning msg u send me...
i miss the way u ask me to call u...
i miss the way u ask me funny question...
i miss the laughters and voice of yors...
i miss the three words u said to me...

but the sadness and the pain cant be put into words...
no one will understand how much i have gone through...

all these gotta end 1 day... and now they have end...but
i noe i am still gotta carry on with my life without these...
so all these have turn to history...

i gotta forget them... all i need is some time...
i am glad that i still have lots of friend who care for me...
don worry about me... i will be fine after afew days...
all i need is some time to get over it...
otahman gotta BE BACK!!!!

*8 more days to SMA camp... woots....sp here i come!!!

+otahman+ blogged @ 10:21 PM

Sunday, March 26

U R GIVING ME HOPE AND ALL OF A SUDDEN U PULL ME DOWN.... and there is no way i can climb back up.... U destroy all the hopes from us...

i cant stand it anymore....
i have try my best to do everything i can....
and still this is how u return mi?
u break the promises u say to me...
u say u still love me?
i dont belive it anymore!!!!
u will say i don trust u....
YA... i cant make myself to trust u now....
u say we r getting further and further away...
i did try to make things happen...
but it seem that u don want things to happen...
then wat u want me to do?

all u can say is DUNNO....
all u can say is stress....

ppl ask me to be more understanding towards u...
i did try.... but have u care? i dunno...
but did u try to understand how i feel?
did u spare a thought for me?
mayb i really dont understand u ba...
let take it as my fault....

but i KNOW...

u r changing me
u r making my heart breaks
u r making my eyes swollen
u r making me mad
u r giving me fake hopes
u r giving me a headace
u delievered laughter to me
but u bring much more pain to me

i admit that i still miss u and of cos love u....
but is the old U... not the U now...

if i carry on like this... i will have no strenght to catch my breath...
i cant find a better soloution any more...
lets end this...
*chang tong bu ru duan tong*
i don even know u will tong anot...
any way... that is not my problem any more!!!
i give up!!!

`xheartbrokenx boy
no longer yor dar dar...

+otahman+ blogged @ 9:14 PM

~~III MIISS YoOUuu!!!!~~

+otahman+ blogged @ 6:52 PM

Saturday, March 25

dunno wat to blog... hais...

+otahman+ blogged @ 12:08 PM

Thursday, March 23

i amm so sad today.... but lets
not talk about it lorx...

ytd... me have to go check up for my body
as singapore poly need to check up de ma...
then i one ppl sian so ask ai shang and sinyee pei me go lor...
then we meet at jurong east... go to the clinic and wait...
so funny lor... we wait and talk crap... then later check
eye de time... must read the number... i keep laughing
cannot read it out... cause they 2 keep laugh then i also laugh...

see finish le we bo liao... go the fun fair play...
wtf... we pay $4 to play one thing that keep
turning us round and round then up to about 80 degree...
then veri funny the thing turn liao ai shang like want to cry...
then the uncle stop i and sinyee there blur blur cause so fast finish de meh...
then the uncle ask ai shang can anot... one come down...
haven go up to 80 degree horx... hahas...
in the end we all still finish the ride...
BUT!!! come down that time ai shang and me want to vomit lor...
cannot stand man... so yun lor...
then later go sinyee house then buy thing eat...
cannot stand lor... eat also feel like vomit lor... hais...
but later about 2h like that then we okay liao...
still can eat ice-cream worx...

sin yee pro lor... not yun de...
then later me ai shang go hm...

then today me go k-box to celebrate xuan yi bday....
before that me go take x ray for my check up...
i so suay lor... go there just close must wait one hour for it to open...
then they wait for me... after that go k-box liao lor...
then wait we want go eat... so lucky lor...
meet sinyee candice they all... lols... so shock...
then eat le we go play pool... play till 10+ go hm...

then i did something... i dunno y i do that...
i now veri fan and sad... don wan to think about that liaox...
just want to keep going....

+otahman+ blogged @ 11:36 PM

Wednesday, March 8

i got marine engineering at singapore poly!!!!

wah lau sian... that course is my 9th choice lor...

y i get behind behind de... the science courses i want all nv tio...

kaox... some more do marine need to wear the marine uniform de...

diaos... then alot ppl form my class all go ngee ann lor...

veri less ppl go singapore poly...

sooo!!!

on monday... me go appel... lols...

try try luck lar... then reach ngee ann with my friend...

and when i in the poly me feel like going back...

surely no chance liao... inside alot of ppl appel lor!!!!
haix... we at there form 11am+ to 2pm+ just to choose a course...

lols...walk here and there... ask alot of ppl which one good all dat...

haix... wat to do... then any how choose a course...

then i took electronic and computer engineering...

hope can get in lor...

after that we go k-box... sing and sing lar...

untill 7 pm... go eat eat... then go hm liao lorx...

then ytd go play pool... after that all go lin zhe house play majong lor...

play till quite late liaox... reach hm le she wait for me till slp le...

haix... sry arx... today okay? today me nv go out can call u earlier liaox... :)))

+otahman+ blogged @ 3:38 PM